just what i need.

i'm overladen with negativity now and once again i ask myself "what's new". sigh this week was more emotionally than physically draining and i'm starting to think about my personality. army is more than 2 years of service to the nation..

..because it's bloody self-discovery and many other things. possibly a sneak preview of working life too. now i really want to just study my whole life away and remain as a student FOREVER. i don't know why i'm talking like that, these changes in myself frighten me and i'm not the bloody same as i am before 090108. but then again we all know army certainly changes people.

shit la tmd.

anyway by some stroke of luck i'm doing junior colours for the 69/07 commissioning parade. which means i get to be there on the commissioning day and join in their rehearsals. though at first i feared the worst, it turned out better than i thought heheh.

and most importantly it gives me the strength and inspiration to continue with the 38-week long course. i'm still nowhere near the end of course (double meaning to that), but seeing one batch leave gives me the sense that i'm making progress in ocs.

when the next batch comes in we'd be out of safti. that's the next step and i'll be looking forward to left. COME ON 27 more weeks to go!

..yet i feel i've been in a lifetime.

thankfully with all the uni stuff settled i'm much more relaxed out of camp. if there's one thing good about army it must be the bookouts. when there's no homework you're really carefree and there's no real need to give a shit about anything in the world.

unlike JC where every weekend before As is spent worrying about what might come out for the next exam. and the topic you can't master sticks in the back of your head. bloody annoying and irritating. at least army relieves me of that stress.

inside camp is a totally different situation though.

today was quite funny because they had inter-arms relay race. kinda like sports day in school only its more exciting cos its 10x400m. LOL fking armour got pwnt they got last which was jokes. they actually lost to LOGISTICS. and hurray signals got 4th, but the biggest DUH was that infantry won. SURPRISE..

(air wing second is also quite wtf.)

anyway i just bought CM 2006 and it's about time to install it hoho. though it might be a tiring end to another week, at least we had our earliest bookout today (friday afternoon!!). even as there were a couple of things which delayed my bookout, but OMG i love this arrangement.

more early bookouts to come plxxxxx. and less outstanding things in army to settle so i can put my mind at ease. i don't know, i feel so fatigued yet i feel so motivated by the officers-to-be in two weeks. i feel so very happy for them, finally rid of this trainee phase in their life.

when the fuck is it going to be my turn?

navy seals ftw!~