long weekend!

i'm in a good mood even as my sleep cycle is screwed. sleeping at almost 3am last night i auto woke up today at half past 9. and i couldn't get back to sleep wth?

but that's okay i have 36 hours to sleep whenever i want. there's a new acronym "LLST" going around in army now and i think it needs no further introduction as to what it stands for. i initially wanted to talk about some really messed up cadets but i figured they aren't worth my time.

i think i'm super elitist now. i look down on bloody idiots who can't study so they command me around cos we're all in army. everyday i think thoughts so venomous that i think if i say it out all at one go i'd just go to hell after they get me OOC-ed. it's tough in there, and sometimes breaking seems such an easy way out.

not so fast, though. i won't quit because of these arseholes. there are little things keeping me sane and it will have to do for the next few weeks or so. i still can't see any light at the end of the tunnel and my milk bars won't be changing flavour anytime soon.

sian. i shall focus on my bookout and stay happy. some of them are really veritable fuckfaces and have a cockup attitude to match. you really cannot be happy comparing because when i compare my friends in sispec with them i think it's goddamn injustice why they are where they are.

it's funny the way things work. since bmt i wanted to be a specialist but i didn't get it - while some of them got it the other way round. it's a very sticky situation. at least i'm thankful for sierra wing being very kind to us, and it makes rushing my guts out worth it. i think.

start of week one, my time in ocs begun.
it was week two, my platoon got really cool.
then came week three, fatigue overwhelmed me.
beginning week four, it really sucked to the core.
now it's week five, i hope i'm still alive.

lolol i'm getting fat plus fat now 72kg suck it even jieliang is gonna be lighter than me. wth man. i thought after running a lot i should have slimmed down but NOOOO. must be cos they allow food in ocs. shittt.

okay that aside i'm enjoying myself now ordering stuff from emart and listening to musik, the latter which i had a severe lack of in camp. in fact on trauma tuesday i was so fricking bored i started creating my own with earplugs and singing to myself in the dark. how sad is that.

i was half thinking i could be a musician. albeit a very failed one then i can go rejoin the army hahaha. that didn't quite make sense but nothing much ever does now.

i figured i wanted to talk about something else, but there isn't much else other than army in my life now. i'm having NUS scholarships interview next week i think. i hope it goes better than the SMU one. it's getting really hectic rushing in and out of camp, but what to do this is my future. which is more than i can say for the rest of those idiots in there.

for those who are experiencing the same angst and pain, don't ever try to take anyone on in the army cos you'd just lose. always remember that you're the one with more to lose - because a pig with a d33k the size of a bolt cam pin does not have much worth in its life that can possibly be taken away from it.

i don't mean to say those with poor results should be condemned. but those with poor results, bad attitude and a desire to order people around - should not only fuck themselves, but should go find their way to hell. given their lack of brain cells i bet if you gave them a map to heaven they'd just hor lan.

okay sanity is not my strong point nowadays. it'd be best if i go for a good meal (another one) right now cos i'm hungryyy again. and my sympathies to those in delta wing. i still notice what you all do nowadays and i really feel sorry for you.

navy seals ftw!~