no lunch no dinner.

..makes yj more angsty than usual.

this post is to let some people know is that i am human. and i make mistakes. and if i'm forced to do things i don't like, i make more mistakes. and you must tolerate because that is me. and if you don't tolerate there is nothing more i can do to help you.

superman couldn't handle whatever i did today, because even if i had wings and wore my underwear on the outside, i would not have been able to split myself into two. but dr. jekyll and mr. hyde would not have succeeded either, because two isn't quite enough.

this is kind of recognition seeking, but i sacrificed my pee time, my consumption time, my rest time all for the sake of the woft club. it's hardly even worth it considering i'm paid peanuts and worked worse than a whore.

anyway i borrowed a book on memory and apparently it says negative emotion or sentiment can cause memory loss and is the "number one cause for memory loss". oh FLUCK i guess that means due to my recent super angsty nature my memory must be virtually non-existent by now. blame the woft club for that.

i've tried hard to accept it as a learning process, something to train myself to become a better person. on the contrary i think woft club makes you a greater piece of shit because of the structures it has in place, and i am glad all my friends concur. at least i know i'm not alone. oh, hardly am i alone.

i've thought about this a few times already and it's amazing how they think they are training "boys to men". let's put it this way - you sure turning a boy into a man is a good thing? man is selfish and uncaring and backstabs like no one's business from what i see.

and if you turn a messed up boy to a messed up man there is no point. so cut that crap about character building and shit woft club doesn't do jack shit except encouraging paying it back, and i don't mean in a good way.

of course if you were to say i'm messed up for posting such crap, then it proves my theory right about woft club. doesn't do any jack shit to you. i've been through its ranks and i am so glad i did not sign away my future.

sigh HALP HALPPPPPP. i am stressed and if working life turns out like this i am good game and there for the taking. divine intervention now!

then like magikarp uses splash.. "But nothing happens." and life goes on.

183 more days.