something is very wrong.

i haven't posted in a long time and i have a few drafts that i am simply too lazy to publish or too humji to publish because they contain caustic content. i say things that sound a lot worse than what i really mean.

and i don't know why recently my luck has been so bad. it must either be the karma deficiency or maybe i'm just jinxed full-stop.

lol but the most stupid thing was i have this unshakeable knack of screwing things up and not really reading what i should. like what i did today. which was stupid and i will not blog about it because it will 1) only make me look more stupid and 2) telling the world something that i shouldn't be telling.

in conclusion..

I MESSED THINGS UP
I MESSED THINGS UP
I MESSED THINGS UP
I MESSED THINGS UP
I MESSED THINGS UP

I MSESED TGHNIS PU

too bad "I" has only one letter. otherwise i'd mess it up too.

haha but somehow this weekend is going to be specially relaxing, especially knowing that tuesday is labour day. an irony. who is going to labour on a public holiday? (but there's school the next day, screw.)

when i see the weeks flying past, i think of stepping down and i'm getting excited. as other ccas complete their handovers to their juniors, i feel that i should do that soon enough so i can hit the books. but first up i have to find the books. then the discipline to hit it. which i doubt i have.

sun tzu says, "know yourself, and know your enemy, you'll win a hundred battles". well then, i guess in rjc we fight more than just a hundred battles. somehow i feel damn weary and fatigued, but at the end of the day when i look at the house standings there's this strange comfort that tells me it's all been all right.

LIKE DUH IT HAD BETTER BE ALL RIGHT. AFTER ALL THE HOURS I'VE PUT IN I WILL ACCEPT NOTHING LESS THAN NUMBER ONE.

and i'm sorry to say this, but i'm proud of it.

lol actually i'm not that sorry to say that.

we had a 4j dinner outing yesterday. wasn't the big 4j sorta thing where the whole class would come down (their monitor suckss), simply because in rjc time does not come by easily. and some others have, well, *some other* commitments AHEM. attendance was fairly decent - 10/33, and kudos to zhang kahn and ming sex for having this idea. the prata was good and the ranting session that followed was EVEN BETTER.

and isn't it good to talk without gep presence zomg. suddenly the world seems normal again. i don't know why but life in 4j was superb. i keep thinking back, and the more i think back the more i think i want to go back. then i know that i want to go back. but no (sic) i can't go back. knowing that there is no way back sucks.

and when council term ends and j2 ends it's gonna suck even more (i think).

OKAY SHIT I'M GETTING EMO.

i'm just blogging crap now, in case you haven't realised. i'm like, 15 minutes away from the half past three show of 和平的代价, some really old chinese serial way back from 1997. i watched it as a little p2 kid and i loved it. now i watch it and i still love it. there are many lessons to take away from it and i like the theme song too. builds up the patriotism in me. though i think singapore sucks now.

trained this morning with allah chew. we talked pretty much a lot of crap. and swam pretty much a lot of distance because we had flippers. there was some mention of going to australia, i think, but a pity the ri pool wasn't connected to the java straits. played a bit of waterpolo and found out that interhouse waterpolo actually clashes with swimming nats heats. gayness.

which i forgot to mention - in these three weeks where i just disappeared from the blog, i'd probably did a hell lot of stupid things. but i can't care to remember all of them so WHATEVER. i'm not going to blog about stupid things. though i am going to waste time here till 3:30pm. and there's 13 more minutes to go.

i think bayley-waddle is like, the best house on earth. i don't say that because i'm bw captain, i say that because it's the truth. and yea actually also cos i'm bw captain. i understand i might have done a crappy job in taking care of every member of the house, but then again it's not like everyone actually cares about what we do. so it's like, yea, i don't really care.

and i'm really going on and on about stuff that isn't important. i think i shall rest my fingers for the last 11 minutes. seriously boliao. and to boost my ego i think i'd just post the house standings at the bottom so that 1) i boost my ego and 2) you people will kindly stop asking me about the house standings because i'm posting it.

lol the stupid banner in the canteen is getting owned because it was too low and all the houses seem to be out of contention alr. sigh the world does not have enough apathetic arseholes like me. if more people didn't bother or give a shit about seeing their house getting owned in ihc, the banner wouldn't have houses missing from it.

now the banner is up and not blocking anyone's path, but there is nothing to see as well. i think they should really put some BIG LCD SCREEN at the canteen, show ihc results, ihc events as well as the clock. and maybe retarded dedications of love. and charge those fags a hell lot of money because lovers nowadays have too much to spend. might as well huh?

then profit should go to council. more precisely, to the house captains. if you need a reason, it's because i'm a house captain in need of money. and as you can see, i'm really talking rubbish so. that's it. and go support the MRT house by watching spiderman 3 on 1st may! it's at eng wah cinemas at toa payoh. yup just go and stop complaining that eng wah sucks because y'all are spoilt brats and should learn how to watch good movies at lousy cinemas at times.

7 minutes. that's just enough to take a 6-minute nap. i love my life. yay.

because even though i mess things up, i can tolerate messes.

*RJC House Standings 2007* (accurate as of 28 April)
Bayley-Waddle, 45
Moor-Tarbet, 27
Morrison-Richardson, 27
Buckle-Buckley, 26
Hadley-Hullett, 19

bayley-waddle ftw!~